This is me

Some one told be once that I was one of those people who give "too much information" I don't fell like I'm one of those people but maybe I am. Never more that right now though. I wrote this more for myself than anything and I didn't know if I should post it or not. Then I thought what I heck, most of it won't come as any surprise to most of you and if it does that's okay. It's who I am. At least some of who I am, and Im just in a sharing sort of mood tonight. So here you go.

This is me, Natalie. I’m 31 years old. I have short dirty blond hair with grown out highlights. I have green eyes, which I think are my best feature. I weigh myself every day, sometimes twice a day, okay, usually twice a day. I recently lost 35 lbs by working out a lot and being hungry a lot. I have 40 lbs to go to reach my goal which is 25 lbs heaver than I was before I had kids. That’s right; I have kids, 5 of them, three boys, two girls, ranging from 2 to almost 10. I have been married for 11 years. I hate being pregnant, but I love having babies. If Sam would go for it I would probably have 3 more. Good thing for my sanity, Sam’s not going for it. I have depression. I’ve had it for as long as I can remember. I’ve seen counselors and I’ve been on meds for 4 years now, and even though they have helped, sometimes things still seem so dark and hopeless that I don’t want to go on. I have lots of friends, really good friends. I have very talented friends and sometimes I get really jealous of their talents. I love to read and sleep and watch movies and TV and go on walks and hikes and take pictures. With a little encouragement from a friend I have finally decided what I want to be when I grow up. I want to be a photographer. I love power tools and making things. I would rather be barefoot and usually I am, even in the winter, even outside. I’m mildly afraid of heights. I love having a clean house. I hate cleaning my house. I’m usually always on time and I hate when others are late. I really tried to like scrapbooking, but it turns out that I just don’t. My favorite vacation is Lake Powell. I just found out that I still love skiing. I love laughing. Sometimes when I’m with my friends or family we laugh until the back of my head hurts, I mean really, really hurts. No matter how bad my day was, watching “The Office” will make me happy. I can’t sing, but when I’m in the car I do anyway, really loud. It took me as long to pick the font and color for this page as it’s going to take me to write it. My favorite day of the week is Friday. I like taking the kids to the zoo. Our dog drives me crazy. I like gardening even pulling weeds. I love playing volley ball and in high school I was really good at it. I bite my nails. Not like a regular nail biter. I bite them so short that they bleed. Then when there is no more nail to bite I bite my cuticles until they bleed. I know, gross. I’ve never had a speeding ticket. I like my pants to be long enough that the bottoms wear out from stepping on them. I don’t wear belts ever, never did except when I was little and my mom made me. I’m a procrastinator. I’m a horrible speller and without spell check this would be almost unreadable. I’m good at math (I just wrote meth, and then had to change it. I’m not sure what that says about me.) I’ve never done drugs. I smoked a cigarette once when I was 14. I had my first kiss at Mennonite Camp when I was 11. His name was Nick. I’m not afraid to try new things. I ate a raw oyster once and was sick the rest of the night, really, so, so disgusting, but I did it. My favorite color is red or green or blue or brown. It depends on my mood. I don’t shower every day. I care too much about what other people think. I love going to plays, my favorite is “Wicked”. I love steak. I’ve seen Twilight 5 times. I have a love hate relationship with traveling. I love being in new places, I hate getting to new places. I’m really patient except for when I'm not. I enjoy crying in movies. I value honesty in people above all other traits. I try to always be honest and if being honest might also mean being hurtful I try to keep my mouth shut. That doesn’t always work. I am the Box Top coordinator for my kid’s school. I am assistant leader for Abby’s Girl Scout troop. I am an Independent conservative. I am very much pro-life. I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints and I have a testimony of the truthfulness of the teaching of the church. I love my family, the one from which I came and the one that I have made. These are just a few of the things that are me. Some of them are embarrassing, some are personal (hopefully not so personal that I’ve made anyone uncomfortable, but then again I shouldn’t care so much about what you think), some are things I’m proud of, and some just are what they are. I like finding out new things about myself. For instance, I really like teaching primary. I didn’t know that until recently, and I think I'm really good at it too. You would have to ask my class to know for sure. I hope I continue to figure myself out as I go, the good and the bad. I just hope that in the end there was more good. By the way the picture at the top is only kind of me. Obviously it’s been edited with special effects (another thing I like doing, editing pictures with special effects).