I'm a runner-week 3 cont.

Right after my last post,

I'm a runner-week 3,

I felt inspired to go run.

So I did.

This was my first time since I started my program that I was not running on the treadmill.

I started with the 3 minute walk then started the 4 minute run, of which I completed 3 minutes.

Then I walked for 3 more minutes then ran for 1 whole minute before I needed to walk again.

I walked 1 minute then ran 1 more then walk 3 minutes and called it a day.

As I was walking home my lungs were burning and I had that burning/blood taste at the back of my throat and I was feeling a bit deflated.

The conversation in my head went something like this.

"Maybe you're not a runner.

Maybe you're just a walker.

Maybe you really can't do this.

Maybe there's no way you are going to be able to run a whole 5K in March and 10K in May."

Then I thought

"When was the last time in my adult life that I ran outside for 3 whole minutes?

Maybe never!"

Then I started talking to God and I said something like

"Please help me succeed at this.

You know how badly I want/need this."

Then I had the thought that He knows even more than I do how badly I want it and He knows how much I need it, and maybe He knows that I don't need to run a whole 10K as badly as I think I need it and maybe it's more about the journey than the destination.

Does that make any sense?

So today, outside in the cold air, on the not totally flat ground, I ran for 3 whole minutes, and my lungs are still burning and I can't stop coughing, and tomorrow I'll get up and do it again, because I'm a runner and that's what runners do! And I'm sitting here crying while I type, but that's okay because sometimes runners do that too.